D e s i r e e

xo

2012-03-06T06:15:00.004+08:00

bonding over... food. (;

---

xx

up and away

2012-03-02T22:06:00.001+08:00

---

my current anthem;

let's set the world on fire.

xx

i

2012-02-25T06:19:00.007+08:00

time: 7.50am
(approx. 1.50am MY body clock time)

mood of the moment:

dizzylazyheadbangin' to:

need to do:

...

NNOO.

xx

waking heart, awakened.

2012-02-17T04:12:00.006+08:00

year 2012 is supposed to be my year of change,
and this year has been pretty good so far.
let's hope it stays this way (or better) throughout!

business has been progressing steadily,
have mailed items out to the usa, greece,
finland, and of course right here in sg as well.
i'm aiming to expand & improve some more as i go.

have also been devoting some time to
my studies as well, although that i can
afford to put a lil more time and effort into. =\
i'm definitely more focused and determined
than i was last year that's for certain!

will be leaving for my weekend
getaway in about two hours' time.
i can't wait! :D

will be immersing myself in my business
and especially my studies once i get back.
i HAVE to.

xx

'perfection'

2012-02-05T06:27:00.005+08:00

'perfection' exists.
or at least, the idea of it.
that's just coz the idea of what's
to be deemed perfect, or close to
perfect, is pretty much subjective.

sometimes 'perfection' is
black and white,
ink and paper.
i can't follow my heart,
i gotta do what's expected of me,
or do what's said to be good for me.

i don't think 'perfection' means
a total lack of flaws in every sense,
it just means that we choose to overlook
the existing flaws, or it could just mean
that something else is infinitely
more important than said flaws.

there will always be a downside to everything.
the thing to think about is if those
downsides/flaws are worth it..

they are worth it though.
the only problem is..

i don't feel it.

xx

waking heart

2012-02-02T06:12:00.008+08:00

---

reveling in the skin,
squirming in a bed of nothing.
i won't wait for anybody,
to kill the beast within.

inhibitions only released
in the comfort of the dark.
i won't wait for anybody,
to kickstart my waking heart.

xx

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xx

red & gold

2012-01-24T03:16:00.005+08:00

the home; to keep in with the
whole lunar new year feel.

:)

xx

cny eve ramblings

2012-01-22T23:01:00.004+08:00

sometimes there's a little piece
of madness in the things that we do.
even in the most ordinary of things.

other times, we try to find meaning in the
littlest of things, in which of course,
most of the time there is none (not in all cases of course).

most of us just like to have some sort
of explanation for our madnesses,
so we conjure up weird theories or
sometimes just lame ass excuses to
somehow normalize these eccentric madnesses.

i'm not totally against that though,
i feel that a lil madness can be essential.

we always believe in what we want to believe,
so there isn't any real justification for all these beliefs,
except only that we want and wish it to be true.
but then others might fight me on this one.
and no, i'm not talking about religion, so take a chill pill.

i believe a conclusion is in order here,
but i'm in too much of a rush right now
to come up with anything substantial.
just wanted to say a lil' of what's
going on in my head.

so, that's done.

---

and oh yes,

happy lunar new year!

xx

presence

2012-01-19T05:54:00.009+08:00

latest addition to the family;
the audi a7 quattro sportback.

love it.

the late night knight
with her late night ride.

---

escapades.

xx

:'(

2012-01-18T17:46:00.003+08:00

one of the best kind of love;

i think i cried for an entire 10mins or so.

such an amazing dog. <3

xx

late night hero

2012-01-16T15:33:00.005+08:00

at beer market on a fri night.
go if you haven't been. (;

just the right amount of tame & crazy.

xx

heart

2012-01-09T04:09:00.008+08:00

new year
x
new start
x
new heart

---

had a few conversations
on horoscopes recently,
no idea how all that came about.

it seems i'm as leo as leos can get.

my friend nicknamed me
"the lioness"..
and rightly so.

rawr. (;

---

*digressing
on a more serious note..

this year, we should all make
the extra extra effort to help the
poor & elderly in any way possible.

saw a couple of poor old folks
out on the cold streets of hong kong
begging for money,
looking frail, helpless, cold & skinny..
it really breaks my heart.

an old man was without a leg,
the other was an old lady and
she was on her knees begging
when i saw her in the afternoon.
she was still on her knees out in the cold
when i passed by a 2nd time in the late night.
there were 2-3 other similar sightings.

each time i helped i didn't care how
much i was giving them,
they definitely need the money more than i do.

something closer to home;
read.

xx

hong kong

2012-01-04T20:16:00.010+08:00

somehow, i never tire of this country..

hong kong feels like my 2nd home at this point.

happy new year! <3

xx

vice

2011-12-27T20:51:00.005+08:00

sleepy, light headed,
heavy lids, dilated eyes,
shivering slightly from the cold,
music accentuated by the crazy rain.

perfect.

---

in 2 more days..

mini msia road trip
x
hk trip

see you next year.
if ever, if never. <3

xx

da cutest thang

2011-12-26T07:28:00.003+08:00

one of the best xmas gifts ever

i'm obsessed.

evidently.

---

m e r r y x ' m a s ! <3

xx

smartmob

2011-12-17T07:48:00.005+08:00

SHOP! \0/

xx

Have me crystalized

2011-12-09T06:01:00.002+08:00

my early morning reprise.

my my, didn't think i'd love this song
any more than i already do, but this
gorillaz x jthunder rendition is almost as addictive.
almost.

---

supposed to be in nyc/la with merry
or in taiwan with stella right now but.. :(
school & business comes first!

a little consolation;
the countdown celebration that's
gonna blow my mind in hong kong!
i'll make sure that happens, nothing less. (;

xx

finally, a long one

2011-12-04T04:27:00.002+08:00

so i've finally caught the much talked about
movie of the moment; 'you're the apple of my eye'.
a good movie to weep to, if you're the weeping kind.
my friends think i'm cold just coz i don't cry during movies.

sooooo untrue. i teared once.
it was hard not to be moved and somewhat
affected by the raw sadness emanating
from the person beside me that one time.
i mean, she was heaving and sobbing and snorting
and was going through tissue after tissue...

anyway.

some people who've watched it said it
reminded them of their secondary school years,
and their secondary school crush(es).
and then it hit me.. i've never had a crush.
in secondary school, at least.
while some of the other girls were setting up
fan clubs and stalking their fav guys,
i was pretty much indifferent to all of them.

probably coz i was too blinded by my first boyfriend at that time.
an older korean guy, the bad boy that the girls loved. at that time.
the only vivid memory i have of the time we had together
was when 4 girls from his school came all the way to my place just
so they would know who their stupid rival was. damn, were they smitten.
and damn was i happy when the relationship ended.
not trying to be an ass, i'm sure he's an awesome guy now,
it just wasn't right for me at that time.

ANYWAY.
my point is that it's hard to feel that way anymore.
that whole 'crushing' feeling. the innocent kind.
it's also hard at this point sometimes to love, and just love,
without caring about external factors; time, distance, work & shiz.

we need to try and love that way again.
love, and just love, without any other care in the world.

xx

5.10am

2011-11-26T05:04:00.000+08:00

they all say i resemble an owl
in more ways than one.

...now you know why.

*hoot*

xx

go on

2011-11-22T01:54:00.005+08:00

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it's okay,
i understand the hesitation.
i mean,
i can't keep up with me too.

but the silence is oppressive.
you know me..
c'mon let's create a racket.

and then, you can return
to your silence while i
carry on dancing to the
noise inside my head.

xx

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2011-11-15T01:31:00.007+08:00

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xx

turning tables

2011-11-14T02:12:00.003+08:00

positively fatal

2011-11-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

i like to laugh in the face of adversity
and paint a beautiful facade.
if i could, i would dance in the
flames with my bare feet,
and turn tears into melted gold.

i like to dream and fantasize,
and sometimes i dream so hard,
they become real.

at the end of each of these realities,
i dream again.
and again.
and again.
and it will go on..

until the day i
can dream no more.

xx

=)

2011-11-06T19:32:00.000+08:00

my new love x dior ring;

i've outdone myself for the month of oct.
time to cut back and save. :/

---

town x shopping x brewerkz x clark quay

awesome night (:

---

"nothing in the world is ever
completely wrong, my dear.
even a stopped clock is
right twice a day."

- Paul Coelho, 'Brida'

xx

meow

2011-10-30T15:46:00.006+08:00

clark quay
x
filter

obviously not very dressed up this year.
i will make the effort to next year. (;

it'll be all sorts of fun.
i'm sure of it.

xx

pangaea

2011-10-24T23:56:00.003+08:00

pangaea was awesome.

great music, awesome crowd,
2 free trays of shots,
champagne, gin & martell,
and lotsa lotsa fun!

after all the partying,
we locked ourselves in the toilet,
and slept on the floor,
too dazed and light headed to care.
made friends with the staff
and the security guard in the process
of all that craziness and
only got home after 8am.

can't really go into details,
but it was a crazy night!
expect nothing less with us. (;

xx

overshot

2011-09-19T18:34:00.003+08:00

in a 'titanium' state of mind right now
as i continue working, hustle, hustling.

i am T I T A N I U M .

xx

running, dashing.

2011-09-18T16:33:00.007+08:00

badminton session with xy, stella & wq.
hardly a productive session,
we were fooling around the whole time. haha!

drinking/poker night at my place
with mark, timothy, mel & nick.
t'was a crazy sick night.
finished off bottles of chivas & white wine,
and after awhile i was jumping around,
talking gibberish & laughing laughing laughing. LOL.

definitely not camera shy.

next night, 1-altitude with mark, mel & michael.
n o m o r e a l c o h o l .
i'm done. :/

was at prive with linda one night.
this was her dessert of choice.
such an unappealing cupcake.
finally.
a cupcake that doesn't look tasty to me. ha!

only i can bring ss out on amazing 'dates'.
she says if i were a guy i'd make a great boyfriend.
hahahaha.

surprise cookie from te yesterday. <3

a necklace from my friend's jewelry line; amado gudek
from the occult octopus collection.
gonna have the bracelet & earrings
from the same collection as well soon.
love it! (;

xx

bit by bit

2011-09-13T01:55:00.009+08:00

much has happened recently,
the days all seem a blur now.
shopping, movies, sports, meeting,
drinks, suppers, hours on the wii
& lotsa lotsa emailing..

stella made us watch final destination 5.
i promise myself, never again.
i hate horror/gory movies urgh.

i should stop buying
martells at 1-altitude. omg.
last one, & we're gonna finish it on wed.

went to borrow the 5 books i've been wanting to read
and have finalized my school schedule thank goodness.
looking forward to school actually. (:

---

my love for accessories can be
matched up to by one person,
and one person only..

b u d d y b
lovin' it.

and only he will bob & move
the way he did on the train
while we were listening to the
likes of skrillex. haha!

the fav.

---

missed out on filter last weekend,
& am gonna have to pass up on avalon's
opening night as well this coming weekend!
ssuucchh a bummmeerrr.

on a positive note though..
have been working on some stuff recently
and everything is coming together bit by bit.
i work best with the music on.. loud. (;

xx

forever & always

2011-09-07T06:41:00.004+08:00

so before me, mel & mark got to jb,
we witnessed an accident
take place at a traffic junction.
if mel had switched to that lane
like she wanted to at first,
the ones in the accident would've been us.
and while we were at jb,
we saw another big accident
happen along one whole stretch of road.

life is so damn unpredictable,
and so damn vulnerable.
anytime, anywhere, anyone.

we wanted to go to jb to chill
but ended up going to this ktv place
and mark insisted he'd sing a leehom song.
o m g h i l a r i o u s.
awesome night. LOL.

---

amidst talks of how unpredictable life can be
and of how romantic certain songs can be,
this song came on the radio;

sucha beautiful & sad song.
wouldn't have heard about it
if ss hadn't told me. <3

xx

eager eyes

2011-09-03T08:43:00.007+08:00

m says, "he's interested in someone else."

so is that supposed to hurt?
the truth is, it doesn't.
it's in fact a good thing.

for his sake, let's just hope this
interest will amount to something good.
and something real. (:

---

what i feel, is liberated. (:

xx

bounce

2011-08-24T09:15:00.003+08:00

i've been driving a lot more than usual recently.
most things are out of my hands but driving always
makes me feel like i'm in control.
love speeding along in the night while friends get swept
along with me in my journey to anywhere & everywhere.

and i'd really like to think that i can go anywhere & everywhere i want.

'broke into' wavehouse at sentosa in the late hours one night
& chilled at the top for quite a bit, talking about everything & anything.
when we left we caught sight of the guard and had to quickly
and quietly make our way around and climb back out of the place.
we didn't get caught though haha love doing crazy impulsive stuff like this. (;

---

i'm yearning to go for a run & do some sports or something.
miss the days where i'd go for my tennis lessons in the morning
before school started back in the poly days.

i also feel like learning to play something on piano from
an actual music score once more.
i hate playing from scores & prefer to play by ear & improvise,
but i always end up playing a song differently each time i do. haha!
not that it's necessarily a bad thing.. (:

activities and piano aside...
it's time for some new changes.

i want.
i can.
i will.

xx

feel good

2011-08-21T19:31:00.004+08:00

saturday's late night/early mornin' reprise;

'feel good' feels good.
we can't stop.

xx

please don't rain on my parade

2011-08-16T01:21:00.003+08:00

it's depressing hanging around negative people.
especially negative, angry people with low self-esteem.
all those negative vibes just throws me off balance
and dampens my sunshine all the time.
well... just a little. (;

STILL.

it's pretty frustrating hearing someone complain
about how their life sucks and bitching about how
everyday and every thing is a bore EVERY TIME.
people like that turn me off so bad.

i keep thinking that the dark cloud that hovers over
them wherever they go is gonna start raining down
on me as well every time they are near.
i'd force a bit of sunshine down their throats if i could,
but they'd only vomit it back out again. =\

i was born in the summer,
i revel in the sunshine.
i live a 100% & love a 100%.
get with the programme already.

xx

nocturnal

2011-08-11T05:59:00.005+08:00

time check: 5.59am
norman bass playing in the background.

i know i should stay home, sleep early &
whatever, but i only really come alive at night.
talking laughing prancing dancing drinking
till the sun comes up, and i'm thinking..
i'm not quite done yet.

oh well we're only young once. ;)

---

i digress.

i always ask questions i already know the answers to.
it's a habit i can't shrug off.
i don't actually need validation, i just want the satisfaction;
the satisfaction of knowing that i was right.

and i was right all along.

xx

:)

2011-08-08T04:52:00.000+08:00

i have the best friends in the world. <3

xx

deep wells

2011-07-29T04:30:00.004+08:00

people's hearts are like deep wells.
no one knows what's at the bottom,
all you can do is guess from what
comes floating to the surface every
once in a while.

even so, only the superficial & light
stuff surfaces.
all the heavyweight stuff remains
at the very bottom.

xx

:D

2011-07-26T19:57:00.002+08:00

LOVE IT.
just had to post this,
i couldn't stop smilin'. (:

xx

22nd

2011-07-26T05:35:00.006+08:00

indochine, chijmes, mbs and
a crazy night at butterfactory.
gonna try to top that next year! (;

xx

even though

2011-07-25T04:14:00.003+08:00

my late night reprise.

xx

flesh & bones

2011-07-12T04:54:00.005+08:00

so some of them were saying,
"this is how it is,
this is how it has always been,
and this is how it always will be,
can't you see?"

can't i see..?
i don't see,
i know.
i'd like to think i've
got it down to an art.

i recognize this never ending, inevitable cycle,
along with it an almost unstoppable force that sweeps
us all into it's tornado of bittersweet destruction.

we nestle contentedly into a warm fuzzy
womb full of fallacy and dive into the heart
of it all with our minds shut off.

i'm probably not making much sense.
it's hard to put into words what
you can only feel.

it feels like my heart isn't a single entity,
more like an entity made up of many diff parts.
come together and they coexist at best,
like an old fashioned bureaucratic organisation
about to go bust because this coexistence between
the diff parts has since stopped being productive in nature.

i'm probably not making sense again.
but i don't care.

i've asked several questions tonight,
but the only question that's
worth thinking about is this;

can i (still) love flesh and bones?

xx